Expect the unexpected

Expectation is "a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future" or "a belief that someone will or should achieve something" 

I did realise that this expectation is really really influence my day, my mood and everything! There is a day where I achieve my expectation and you know what, my days after that day really really blooming like fresh flowers that wont die, ever! Somehow, for the past few weeks, There is something I unexpected suddenly happened to me. I was on strict diet and successfully lose my weight from 65kg to 58kg but then I had problem with my health and Im on medication blablabla I was prevented from fasting and had to eat a lot plus the Dr gave me a meds that increase my appetite, ugh! so now im stuck at 59 like forever (im dying waiting for it to reduce tho) huwaaaa!

So, did i expect that? did i expect i will get sick in the middle of journey? NO! I never want it! So, I start reflecting everything and I realised on something,

EXPECT THE UNEXPECTED!

Yea! I tried them for a week and Alhamdulillah its getting better! I was very tired for past few days and got quizzes + assignments + presentations till exhausted and gasping to breath (tipu je) hahaha I start to expect something with unexpected consequences just like when I do revision and study as hard as I can but I still cannot understand that certain topics, I try all over again but I calm myself too and preparing myself for a worse situation like what happen if suddenly the quiz not going on paper? something like the lecturer shows them on slide and we have to answer it on paper with limited time and no turning back? big wow! And guess what, it really really happened!!!!

My reaction? I did not suprised and eventough the result is worse like really really worse ever, I still can smile and persuade myself to move on and focus on next thing, what should I do? what should I prepare?

So, my dear friends esp those who keep texting me, Im sorry and really really sorry cs I cant allocate any time for you, my journey is really hectic as well as exhausting, I even sleep at 8pm usually and woke up at 3am, what do you expect I can treat you in middle? Sorry, Im just focusing on my mission and dream. I don't want something I really really unexpected to happen. 

Hopefully, somewhere somehow someone really pray for my success and in shaa Allah, I'll find you someday. Take care :)

withlove, Tya